well for those of you who are not so close to me these days but still curious as to how I'm doing these days, here you go. well in the near 5 months since my last post... Cara did her thing with another guy, ended our relationship without remorse and joyfully skipped on. I suppose it's a good thing that I found out who she really was before things got too complicated but still, it hurts to know that nearly 3 years with me meant nothing to her. It also sucks to be single again after having a relationship that you were totally committed to. I kinda wonder if I'm ever going to find one that has nearly as much meaning to me as that one did. Oh well, I can only hope I guess. I'm now working for the Anderson's Talmadge location as a beer and wine expert and I'm loving it, but it's all in preparation for opening up my brewpub in Toledo. All I've been doing is putting together the pieces of the puzzle, surveying sites, gathering data on the area market, putting together a business plan, and working with local breweries that have been generous enough to teach me the in's and out's of professional brewing. This thing is happening and thats the amazing part, everyone is in support of it and excited to see it happen, it's only a question of when being as that I need at least a couple years before I feel I've established a solid background to put forward to investors and banks and such. You know, It's funny. The plan I came up with to be able to support the way my Ex wanted to live her life was the one she hated (she seemed to figure regardless of the plans I had to enrich the community and help charity, Brewpub meant bar, which in her mind meant constant drunkenness. Apparently things would have been completely different if it was a winery) and now is the one thing that is working out in the end in my life in spite of her. I came up with the Brewpub because she changed her mind and instead of moving with me to Toronto or Chicago so that I could continue to do theatre she wanted to stay within an hour of her family and then she decided that instead maybe wanting one or two kids that she definetely wanted atleast two. Even though I, not having a father nor a clue how to be one was spooked by the notion of one let alone more than two, I loved her enough to follow her on it. My back up plan to theatre was just signing back up with a Fire Department. Those were my two passions in life, performing and helping people, but with the fact that she wanted to stay in Toledo and raise more than a couple kids while working a government job herself, I knew that neither passion was going to do enough to support a family well. So the Brewpub was the one thing I found that would satisfy all needs. I'd have a respectable place that I could use to give back to Toledo by donating portions of profits to charity, and brewing beers made just to raise money to give back to the community. Something that would give us enough money to live comfortably and not wind up fighting over bills, and then I'd be more available for the kids during the day and wouldn't be working constantly at the place so if I needed to stay home with a sick kid or pick one up from school, I could do that. The thing is though that I fell in love with the Brewpub and I plan on seeing it through to the end, I want to give back to this city and do what I can to help make Toledo return to it's former glory and become a place people want to live again. Oh well. that's my life right now. lol anyone interested? | 
